Side Effects

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 by Jay Paul

To all my fellow schizophrenics—
Fuck it!
Fuck it, all—
you are fine as is—
some idiots
made you this way—
they are the nutty ones,
not you.
My advice is this—
if you have been made schizophrenic,
think schizophrenic all the way,
think the way
bequeathed
to you by idiots you cannot
control,
but who tried to control you,
and succeeded,
but only for a time—
until you seized the glory
they accidentally
handed you—
Sanity is the side effect
of schizophrenia,
carpe diem,
sisters and brothers,
            carpe diem—
the day has always been OURS

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